Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Job Hunting, enough said....

I've been looking for a job lately. I'm trying to save up for moving, school, bills, and then for leisure. It's so hard. Even places that have 'Now Hiring' signs tell me that they aren't hiring anymore once I ask for an application. It's so annoying and it's really pissing me off.

I've finally gotten back to writing my novel. I have 3 chapters done. Over 14,000 words. Still not even close to where I want to be though; and where that is is finished.

Got a letter from my mother yesterday. Thinking back to when I saw the envelope; she even decorated it herself; I feel like crying. It feels like someone snatched everything away from me. Someone ripped out my heart and now after they threw it in the mud they keep jumping up and down on it. As they do they're laughing at me, but all I can do is let tears fall and cry out for my mommy that they dragged away from me.

Please, I hope I have the strength to keep going. I just want to escape. Even if that means to inhale only one last time and let all the oxygen in my body slowly escape from it.

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