I feel constant lonliness. I can't escape it no matter what I do or try. Medication can't help the lonliness. Will I feel better once I move? Will it dissapear when I go to college? How does one deal with this? Everything I do makes me feel even worse. Is life supposed to be this way?
I never used to cry but now I cry in the shadows almost every night. I can feel the tears rolling from my eyes and see them dripping onto the laptop. Can someone like me be saved from this disease? Am I worthy enough to be loved? Am I strong enough to die?
What will I do in life to make me feel happy? Can I even acheive it?
Writing nor music is no longer soothing to my heart. My soul feels the lyrics too much. My loves are causing me pain. What to do?
At this point I'm hopeless. It might never change. Stuck writing music and books but few ever get finished. I'm completely and utterly hopeless.
No friends, no lover, no father. Taking care of those close. How sad
depressing .... Stop it and listen to some Rihanna.... do you want me to burn you a copy?
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